I have never been married. I have never woken up next to the same person every day for a year. Or even a month. I have never been in a monogamous relationship.

But: even when I was too young to pronounce the word "monogamy", let alone knew what it meant, I knew I didn't believe in it.

 

There are 8 billion people on the face of the earth.

Approximately 4 billion men.

Out of those, around 0.3 billion are in the ages 25-35.

That is 350 million men I could potentially meet and get romantically involved with.

 

I'm not very good at math, so I won't break it down further, but I still think that there are quite a lot of people to choose from, even after adding factors such as what I classify as good looks or attractive qualities.

 

In short: I think it's pretty much impossible to 1) find a person who has everything you're looking for, who can satisfy everything you'd want, and 2) to not find anyone else you find interesting and want to pursue after committing to someone.

 

So I was surprised when I found my head on your chest and thought that I could say no to every single one of those other 350 million men if I had you. I hadn't added you to my calculations. I'm sorry for that. Now, there's no longer 350 million men to choose from.

 

There is only one.